Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Doesn't match up... (Emotions, part 2)
No kids. Awesome parents at home doing everything I usually do. Me in San Diego. Perfect weather. Beaches. Sun. Sea World. 5 Star hotel. Kayaking canals lined with million dollar boats backed by million dollar houses. Good food. Restful nights. Huge Bathtubs. And best of all 3 days with a awesome, thoughtful, loving, handsome, fun, adventurous, husband!
But Sunday morning I woke up in a funk. I was tired and cranky. I told my husband, "I feel ugly. And sad. And I sort of feel like you don't love me." He sat there quietly, patiently listening to me voice my emotions. He told me he loved me. He told me he thought I was beautiful. And after a little while he said cautiously, "I want to point out how silly it is that you feel I don't love you considering where you are and what we have been doing for the last couple days." Yikes!
"SO TRUE!" How stupid I am. The real truth? Our emotions very often lead us astray from what is real and what is true. So I shut my mouth. Stopped talking about how I felt and started thinking about what was true. And at first nothing happened. I still felt the same. But then like ice- I slowly began to melt. The emotions I felt subsided and we could get on with our day- or in that case with the drive to La Jolla Cove.
My husband cheered me on, "I can tell your fighting your emotions, thank you!"
Yes I am really that ridiculous. Yes, my emotions are really that illogical. And yes, I think our emotions mislead us women ALL the time! Sometimes, I need to tell them "no."